Tuesday, November 9, 2010

I wonder.

I guess a lot of you may be asking where I've been or what happened to the music events that I was so proud to be organizing or even apart of... or where did that girl go that was so full of energy...

well the answer is a lot has happened.

And I guess it took something pretty big in my life to make me take a step back and realize that maybe I was going too fast... or even being too selfish... or simply just missing what was really important in life...

"Don't get lost out there!" or "Remember where you came from!"... I never really got that...

until this day.

cuz now nights all blur together. And I wonder sometimes what was so special all of those times when I just had to be there... and I wonder if all those times when I had to meet Michael or Sophia or Ellie were really as important as it seemed...

And I wonder how the ones who aren't here now seemed far more important
than the ones that truly cared... about my well-being... or my inner-most thoughts... or who even took the time to have a coffee... or listen when I was down... or laugh when I was having a good time. or just plain be there for me.

I wonder if those moments that I can't really even remember were greater than the one who naturally filled me with positivity... or the one who gave me strength to do things that I never envisioned I could do... like run marathons even...or ride 40 or 50 miles without even thinking about it.

Wow. I look back on those words my loved ones used to say.

I did get lost. And I did forget.

Here are some photos taken during the last couple of weeks with my family and best friend in MI and OH.

Happiness.